~birTday cOuNtdoWn~

someone asking me..

birthday tahun ni nk ape..??

hmmm...xtau la...

"xtau la" tu actually ader bnyk mkna...

mgkin ku betul2 tatau..

n mgkin juga bnyk sgt bnda yg ku mau..
tp ku xtau ku lebih mau yg mane..hehehe...

let me share...pe yg ku rs ku mau sgt pd saat dan ketika ini...

firstly...i really want this...



~a very nice bag right...??? i want this bag...cuz i love guess n have started collecting the collections...huhu..br ade 1 guess bag..shaye nk lg...!!!!!~

second, it must be a



~perfume...but i already have this one..bought ms xmas sale last year..hoping to get a new one this coming xmas sale..~

next is my obsession...jeng jeng jeng....



SHOES!!!!! i want all the shoes they are wearing...!!!! primavera or vincci, even VKI,all are accepted..hohoho....

but...at this very moment, i really want and NEED....


~ a car...i love big car..p xmampu la nk bela..hehe..so viva shuld be ok..sng sket nk grk g mane2..xyah pnjm kete member..or sewa kete..kn?hmmm...i really need a car right now..i'm dying 4 it..huhuhu...mama..i want this....=( ~

so..."xtau la" tu mknanyer...
bnyk sgt yg ku mau....heeeee.....

p ku lg suka kumpul my own money..
n g bli sndrk...
lau nk bg present, bg la ape2 pn..
ku terima dgn gumbira...=)

anyway, ku sudah tau 1 of my birthday gift,from him..hehehe..kind of funny..

i'll show u later k...

till then, daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

inFeriOrity ComPlex

alkisah, ade satu hari tu, zara sengaja carik pasal utk mnyakitkan hati sndr, zara baca blog ex boyfren zara..ok jer..nice blog..nice content..
tp..ia x berakhir d situ..
zara tgk die punye link blog..maka zara pn ternmpk la satu nama yg zara rs mcm..mcm knl..
bukak la..mmg betul..ex boyfren zara pnye exgirlfren punye blog..klik.dh bukak...
hmmm....keciknye kurasakan diriku ini...
blognya cantik...the words yg die susun jd ayat pn cantik..everything is beautiful..
and then zara tgk die pnye link pulak..mane nk jmpe golongan2 mcm zara nih..semua kwnnya are well educated..bakal doctor, bkl scientist, bkl mcm2 lg yg hebat2..
i don't belong to this kind of world..
walaupn hati zara ade dkt die..tp zara rs confuse gilak..dunia kami sgt2 berbeza..lg confuse bila die kata he's waiting for me...begitu ramai girl2 yg menarik, yg life dorg cm sama, kenapa die mau tunggu zara jugak..??
ataupn pd saat dan ketika ini, die dh x pk cmtu...hmmm..zara pn xtau..
tp...zara betul2 tau..yg zara sgt2...iNferiOr...dan kecik...

H1N1??????

Ya Allah...
pe yg zara kna buat ni...
2 3 ari lps my boyfren demam...plus batuk plus selsema plus skt bdn...
ptg td, suddenly announced yg Uni diorg ditutup 4 a week,
300 dikuarantin..3 or more of them are his housemates..huhu..
n die dh blk rumah..
zara sgt2 risau..
cuz die x pegi klinik lg...
plz..g jmpe doc..sbb zara sgt2 risau...
harap2 xde bnda yg bukan2 jadi...
rilly2 hoping...2 hear gud news asap from him...

~feeling amendment~

...kebusanan...

...kemalasan...

...kepenatan...

...kepeningan...

...ketidakpastian...

...kerumitan...

&

....kekosongan....


............................H A T I.............................

hitam itu subjektif...

that's new!!
slalunye zara dgr org ckp cantik itu subjektif..
but yesterday..
kwn zara ckp, hitam tu subjektif..
this fren of mine, br jer get engaged with her lover..nice couple i think...
when she came 2 my room, we started talking bout heart n guy...
hehe...
ok, make it simple, my fren is so beautiful..(dis is my personal opinion..)
n her fiance is a dark tall guy.. (n i also think dat dat dark is ok 4 me..)
but how for others?? do they think they same..??
so i ask her..
pnh x terfikir yg u deserve somone yg lain..not the better..(who knows if u r better than the other rite..??) but a better looking person..(he's ok..but i think our frens owez talk bout his dark skin...)
n she answered...aku ni cantik sgt ke..nk cr yg hensem2 sgt...??bg aku,die tu putih,n hitam tu subjektif...titik.
titik tu bermakna zara faham.
it's all about acceptance...
n mindset...
biasalah..klu kita sukakan bnda yg cantik2...tu lumrah hidup...
tp the reality is x semua bnda cantik...tp mgkin blh jd cantik klu kita buat modification kt mind kita..
xpun kita buat some adjustment kt application of the things..
klu nk difikirkan x puas hati..
mmg la..zara sgt2 x puas hati...
like one of zara nye kwn...
disebabkan cantik, senang sgt nk dpt boyfren...
n of course die dpt buat plhn bila dh ade byk pilihan kn..??
untungnye bila yg dtg tu ade kerja bagus..rupa bagus..perangai pn bagus...
bile kenyataannye rmi lelaki cr yg cantik2 dan cerah2..
pastilah girl2 yg kurang cantik x dipandang...ataupun x perasan pn ade...
maka pilihan pn xde...
bila zara susah hati sal ni...
that fren la yg buat zara positive..
mmg betul..it's all about acceptance..plus...itu lah yg terbaik untuk kita...ok??

zara nk nangis...='(

ya Allah ya Tuhanku...
zara teramat sgt penat ari ni..
rs mcm semua tenaga dh overused...
dgn klas yg memenatkn since this morning till 7.30 pm..
plus the last 3 hours class is a creative movement class.n it is all about moving here n there, running 4 my life n hardly b static..huh.soooooo........tiring..
n today zara still thinkin bout a fren..still about him..
penat la..bila ari dh packed mcm ni pn otak ni still ade ruang for him...ape ni...???
x pnt ke zara...menanti bnda yg x mungkin tiba...
zara rs zara sgt penat physically n mentally..smpi zara rs cm nk nangis at this momento...
x tertanggung rasanya penat mcm ni...
hopefully tomorrow will be less tiring than today...
zara betul2 x larat...............='(

i quit..

assalamualaikum...
it is not easy to express this feeling by words..
kenapa zara degil sgt..??
degil untuk ikut kata hati..
n finally..zara frust..
n regret 4 doing sumthing..
zara gaduh ngan sumone yesterday..
so....menyesal doing that..
but the problem is..
die x faham sbnrnye ape yg zara mntk...
he misunderstood me...
n he wont listen anymore after this..
so if sumdae he reads this blog, perhaps he will understand..
sahabat..zara betul2 mntk maaf..
dengan teguran zara, zara dh termasuk dlm org2 yg membelakangkan awk..
zara dh termasuk dlm geng yg jahat bg awk..
actually, zara suka sgt tgk awk n ur lovely girlfren..
i'll pray that one day u will marry her...
but yesterday, i just hope that u can keep all the photos only for urself..
n only u can see it..
i dun ask u to break up..neither to change u..but
i just want to be a good fren..
who will tell u if sumthing is wrong..n be listened..
but when u tell me that u cannot accept it n tell me to not bother ur personals, i'm shocked.
is that wut a good fren will say??
but wutever happens, i still hope that he will share his problem with me in the future..
even though it might b so impossible to happen..hmmm...i luv u my fren...
hpe sumdae u will understand my sincere intention..

assalamualaikum...
long tym not see..hehehee...
sem baru dh start...huh...penat...
ape yg zara pk ari ni ek???
hmm..ape kata zara cite sal pe yg zara pk mnggu lps??
hmmm..bla zara tgk kwn2 zara..zara rasa cm...sedih..
sedih kt diri sendiri...zara pelik...kenapa lelaki minat girl yg cantik2 jer?
mmg betul, cantik tu subjektif..tp bla tgk kt girl tu..semua org pn akn ckp girl tu cantik..
maksudnye..xde kaitan pon ngan subjektif or objektif...
so..zara pk..ble ramai2 lelaki just nmpk girl2 yg cantik2, abis tu sape nk nmpk girl yg xcantik..(or kurang cantik) mcm zara ni??
ramai kwn zara..yg rupanya boleh thn..(kwn2 pn ckp mcm tu..)..pilih girl yg cantik..nape ek??
hmmm...pape pn, bnda ni sajer je zara pk tym2 kebusanan...lau ade org nk share cite ngan zara pn best gak...
c u..assalamualaikum...=)